Now, Not Next
I feel like a monkey, and not just because my beard makes me look like one (ask my daughter.) I have this image in my mind of the way monkeys swing so lithely from branch to branch, vine to vine, through the tangled jungles of their little lives. They seem perfectly at home and at ease in the split second of weightlessness between letting go of the last handhold, and grabbing on to the next.
That's me in this moment. I've been doing a temporary contract at the CBC, working on the Gill Deacon show. I've been extended a couple of times already. But the show has officially NOT been renewed, and a question mark hovers over my immediate professional future.
Don't get me wrong... I'm not suffering. In fact, I'm leaving tomorrow for a 2-week trip that will take me to St. John's, Halifax, Montreal, Toronto, Winnipeg, Regina, Calgary and Vancouver. I'll be following the auditions tour of a new reality show , called "No Opportunity Wasted." It's the brainchild of Phil Keoghan of the Amazing Race, and it's designed to help people get over their biggest fears and get on with living better lives. Covering Phil's tour on the NOW production blog will be a great opportunity for me.
And there is lots more to look forward to... I'm planning an Ian Tamblyn documentary shoot on Lake Superior in August, for one, and I've got a number of musical gigs coming up, including a date with the Six String Nation guitar right here in my own neighbourhood. I just finished a new song (now on my myspace page) that has taken me two years to write, and turned my whole songwriting approach inside out. Plus we're moving through major renos here in the home, and as I enter my 39th year, there's a whole lot of shaking going on.
And yet... at this moment, it's fair to say I really don't know what's next - where the money's coming from, where I'll be working, what turns I'll be taking. I'm letting go of one vine, and the other hasn't swung within reach yet. If I looked down I'd be terrified, and if I looked back I'd miss the opportunity.
I'm looking ahead, but I'm mumbling a monkey's mantra as I do: now, not next. Now, not next. NOW, not next... NOW!
That's me in this moment. I've been doing a temporary contract at the CBC, working on the Gill Deacon show. I've been extended a couple of times already. But the show has officially NOT been renewed, and a question mark hovers over my immediate professional future.
Don't get me wrong... I'm not suffering. In fact, I'm leaving tomorrow for a 2-week trip that will take me to St. John's, Halifax, Montreal, Toronto, Winnipeg, Regina, Calgary and Vancouver. I'll be following the auditions tour of a new reality show , called "No Opportunity Wasted." It's the brainchild of Phil Keoghan of the Amazing Race, and it's designed to help people get over their biggest fears and get on with living better lives. Covering Phil's tour on the NOW production blog will be a great opportunity for me.
And there is lots more to look forward to... I'm planning an Ian Tamblyn documentary shoot on Lake Superior in August, for one, and I've got a number of musical gigs coming up, including a date with the Six String Nation guitar right here in my own neighbourhood. I just finished a new song (now on my myspace page) that has taken me two years to write, and turned my whole songwriting approach inside out. Plus we're moving through major renos here in the home, and as I enter my 39th year, there's a whole lot of shaking going on.
And yet... at this moment, it's fair to say I really don't know what's next - where the money's coming from, where I'll be working, what turns I'll be taking. I'm letting go of one vine, and the other hasn't swung within reach yet. If I looked down I'd be terrified, and if I looked back I'd miss the opportunity.
I'm looking ahead, but I'm mumbling a monkey's mantra as I do: now, not next. Now, not next. NOW, not next... NOW!
posted by David Newland at 6.5.07
2 Comments:
I LOVE the new song... and I really like your perspective on things. ;)
I was about to say I was feeling sad/bad? for you about the end of the Gill show... but then as I read more, I realized how exciting the next weeks and months will be... I think you're just about to run into a thick patch of vines!
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