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Whereof we cannot speak

Way back when, as a student at Pearson College near Victoria, I encountered a book that would change my perspective permanently. It was by the precocious philosopher Ludwig Wittgenstein, it bore the inelegant title "Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus," and it was an unlikely bridge between (roughly speaking) Western rationalism, and Eastern mysticism.

It's been a long time since I read the Tractatus, but I remember that it begins with the provocative and profound statment "The world is composed of facts, not things." I also remember that the arguments are laid out like the sections of a software manual: main points are numbered 1 through 7, while their respective discussions are designated by decimal points. Hence, there might be a section 6.1 which elaborated on 6, a 6.1.1 which went into further detail on 6.1, a 6.1.2 which gave a further elaboration on 6.1, and so on. Given that it was written around the time of the first world war, it seems pretty forward-thinking by today's standards.

But what affected me most about the Tractatus, which is extremely literal and deliberate in every way, was that it used the ladder of logic to reach a place in which logic no longer held sway. Wittgenstein pointed out that certain understandings do not stem from deduction; rather, they are "made manifest." Moreover, he noted that the existence of that which logic cannot explain or describe, "what is mystical." And he concluded with a bold and beautiful statement, "Whereof we cannot speak, thereof we must pass over in silence."

Which brings me to the crux of the matter. I agree with (what I understand of) Wittgenstein, whole-heartedly and reverently. Logic can't touch the ineffable. That's what makes it ineffable. And indeed, beyond our radically subjective lives, wherein everything is filtered through our concsiousness, our sensory input, our emotional chemistry, and our memories, pretty much everything is ineffable.

Yet as an artist I feel my job has to do with sensing that, exploring it, expressing it in my way. It would be lofty to suggest that doing so benefits the world. I'll settle for saying that it feeds my soul.

But in any case, I believe that music and art and the written word waft the scent of the ineffable into the halls and cubicles of ordinariness. I believe that creation can be glimpsed and hinted at intuitively. I believe we can share little morsels of communion with the divine. But is doing that just trying to say what cannot be spoken? Is it only a disturbance of the critical silence to which Wittgenstein referred?

I think not. I think what we do as artists is to point to the existence of the ineffable, usually implicitly, by expressing the poignant limitations of the human condition. We try to say what is, and the open-minded listener or viewer or reader is led, perhaps, to that indescribable vastness of what-is-beyond-what-is.

About this, we can say only, it is, because it must be, as a corollary of our own limited and experiences. "I think, therefore I am; I am limited to this thing that is thinking; therefore, that which is not me thinking, is...?" We can say that it is, but we can't say what it is.

We can give the divine, the ineffable, the inexplicable, the unknowable a name, a name like "God," and we can sing, dance, sculpt, paint, write the glory of the name among the pains and perils and gifts and glories of our own experience.

But what God is... about that, we can say nothing.

Is that not the profoundest peace of all?

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Young man gone west

I've spent the last week in British Columbia and upstate Washington, spending time with family and friends, reading, relaxing, paddling, sleeping more than eight hours a night, and trying to clear my mind.

That's a pretty ordinary list of things to do - so ordinary that most people wouldn't have to remind themselves to do them. But one of my worst faults is that I'm always trying to deal in peak experiences, and I miss a lot of what's great about the ordinary as a result.

But the west coast has always provided me with extraordinary versions of ordinary. I first saw the Pacific Ocean on a family camping trip in 1980, and never forgot the beauty of this rugged, rough, yet somehow youthful coast.

When I was seventeen I hit the west coast again, this time under my own steam, as a new student at Pearson College near Victoria. I'll never forget the solo train trip I took through the Rockies from Edmonton; the 3 days I spent bumming around at Expo 86, or the sunset I watched from the ferry between Vancouver and Victoria with my whole life before me, unwritten, but filled with what I now know was the promise of adventure.

I get that same feeling again every time I'm out here. I only need to look at a map of the coast to get a hint of it. It's not the nostalgic yearning I sometimes get to be back in the bush in Ontario, or the heavy-hearted sentimentality that clouds my memories of the Martimes. It's just a plain good feeling that says, you can have boundless beauty in your life, if only you are brave enough to choose it for yourself. And that's not just about location. It's about attitude.

The question is, am I that brave? I know I was when I was seventeen. I still feel that way, to myself. But the fact that I don't live with boundless beauty today is a sharp reminder that I have to work a lot harder to be as brave as the young man who once went west.

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Nova Scotia tour highlights

-a passenger in the "lost luggage" line at the Halifax airport buying Timbits for everyone
-sorry, we don't have a compact car - would you like a Jeep Cherokee at the same price? (Yes.)
-swapping stories with a Pearson College student who was born when I was a student there
-meeting up with an old friend's sister at the Laughing Whale in Lunenburg
-playing acoustically to fans & friends in Lunenburg filling the Fish Factory bar
-collecting on all the consignment CDs that sold in various places over the past year -
-meeting up with Darren Arsenault, who helped with the live recording last summer
-staying in the delightful "Hospitality Suite" in the Union Street Cafe
-they know how to party in Berwick...
-the folks at the Fundy View fish & chips shop and campground framed my publicity photo
-confirming that squirrels did not ruin my cabin over the past year
-rockin' out at the Evergreen
-the Library Pub in Wolfville
-picking up two hitchhikers who work with Brinkman, the company I used to plant trees for
-the early evening sun from Cape D'or
-playing for 4 hours solid at the Beach Cafe
-reading Joshua Slocum's story of his solo sailing journey around the world
-coming home lighter than I was when I left

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